You are in my thoughts and prayers.

((hugs))

Hang in there Kate & thank you for keeping us in the loop.

Wishing you continued stregnth and courage!

I wanted to first tell you how brave and strong you are. I first found you through a youtube video - an update video. I then found your blog. I was so glad to see an update about your life but didn’t realize how ‘full’ the update would be. The thought of you continuing to fight fills me with joy. I am cheering for you all the way!

If it wouldn’t be too bold of me to ask, I desire your thoughts about Jesus Christ and what the Holy Bible claims about Him and what it also claims about everyone that belongs to Him.

I don’t know you very well and because of that, I know you as the courageous lady fighting pancreatic cancer.

The reason I want to know what you belive is because He (Jesus) is my sheild. I hear all you are going through and I cannot even begin to really relate or understand it. I have nothing to even compare it too. It makes me first and foremost desire to pray for the Lord to heal you this instant right now. If not that then for new medications to become available for you, right now. If not that, then for Him to remove every fear and replace it with His peace that passes all understanding.

When all else fails, Hope is what I have left. Faith and Hope that He is who He says He is, that He can do what He says He can do, and that I AM who He says I AM - All because of Jesus and what He did for each of us on the Cross.

If you are already a believer, I hope you will search the scriptures and allow Him to meet your every need.

Thank you for revealing your heart here. I hurt for you. I am deeply saddened by the ‘outlook’ that has been given to you by the doctors, but I am lifted up by your will to keep on fighting.
I have prayed for you here and there but not consistently. I desire to pray for you everyday from here on out Kate - because that is all I have to offer……

Heavenly Father, I lift up sweet Kate to you now in the name of Jesus. I ask you to heal her, I ask you to kill these tumors once and for all. A miracle is what I ask for. Help me Lord with my unbelief - I know nothing is impossible with you. I also ask that you shower her with your Love. Show her how much you love her. I also know that my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. I ask for healing, hope, peace. I ask that your will be done in her life. You say in Jer 29:11 “I know the thoughts that I have toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Lord, I ask that you show her what this means for her. I also ask that you remove any fear that tries to take root. Reveal your love to her. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen.

I also found this as I searched for the exact scripture verse in Jeremiah (the note follows the scripture): “I know the thoughts that I have toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”(Jer. 29:11)

..Let this scripture speak to you…hear the Lord assure you…Let HIM SPEAK PEACE TO YOU…He wants the best for you…You are not in a hostile place or situation alone…God is with you…”For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him.”(2Chron.16:9)…It is God ,Himself who does battle in our behalf…He seeks to bless us…expect the miraculous in your life …Don’t allow your mind to short change you..Expect God’s best in all parts of your life…you will not be ashamed for trusting Him…Commit your way unto Him…He will take care of everything committed to Him…You will come out ahead…victory is assured…He promises(Psalm 37:5)…read it for yourself…Keep His promises foremost in your mind…discouragement will flee…start counting the prayers God has already answered for you…start counting your blessings…joy will flood your being…you will see the faithfulness of God…Uzziah prospered as long as he sought the Lord(2Chron.26:5)…Seek the Lord…you will be blessed…He will hearken unto you as you pray(Jer.29:12)…Expect to prosper in all ways…God will bring it about…God will cause your enemies to stumble…you are assured victory…in Christ Jesus you have victory…”Draw nigh unto God and He will draw nigh to you.”(James 4:8) Amen

Thank you for your email.

My wife died this year from Pancreatic Cancer. I am a South African caucasian male and my wife was a Thai person. When I married her I was the happiest person since we both married late and enjoyed one another’s company. She was married before with her first husband dying of heart disease.

You can imagine what I felt when the doctor said she had pancreatic cancer and she was going to die that year. We trusted our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and she did not die in 2007, nor 2008 but in April 2009. During that time we went through great sadness but also great joy. We were able to work on our relationship with both with one another and with God. I am happy that she is with the Lord Jesus Christ because we had so much opportunity to deal with that subject. Many people do not have that and thank God we did.

You know the last night of her life she suffered a lot because she was really ill. The doctor said it was soon, but I asked her if she still loved the Lord Jesus and that she believed and trusted Him. She nodded to me with great pain. The words choked out of my mouth when I asked her then why she suffered and why she does not go home to be with Him. I cried when I said that because I did not want her to go, but I knew she suffered too much. She also had a tear in her eye. The next morning at 04:00 she died.

I had more tragedy when my step-daughter (my wifes daughter) who had a baby which me and my wife adoped travelled with her biological mother to be together for a weekend and just 3 weeks after my wifes death, met in a car accident and the baby died the next day. My step daughter was also seriously injured. I could not believe this and it was one of the saddest days of my life. I could not believe this and I asked God for many weeks “why”.

What I want to exort you and others like you that Pancreatic Cancer is not your end. If you know the Lord Jesus Christ you have the whole of eternity to look forward and this thing is just a blob in the way. My wife is now with the Lord, so is my baby daughter. I have a modified picture of my daughter in the arms of Jesus and while I cry about not being with both of them, I take great pleasure in knowing that they are with the Lord, with no more pain and I have a sort of holy jealousness that Jesus has my little baby in His arms and she is smiling.

If God wants you healed He will do so, by the miracle of prayer or the intervention of the doctors. If not, take great pleasure that he gave you the opportunity to prepare to be with Him. Many do not have that privilege. Just live each day, do not fret about death but be aware that your life is in the hands of the maker of heaven and earth.

I am planning to do a full testimony about both my wife Anna and my baby daughter Jane and I hope that it will give insight into victory in spite of suffering and pain.

Two things reminded me strongly during my time of mourning when I spoke about their deaths with great pain:

1
A Buddist woman who saw the movie Passion of the Christ and was a customer in my business asked me once why I am suprised that Anna and Jane was not spared because God did not spare His own Son to achieve his purposes. I was suprised that she understood this as an unbeliever yet me as a believer missed it at that stage because of my grief.

2
I listened to a CD cut on the funeral of Jane and one of the songs sang “I was made to worship you”. It suddenly hit me that I could ask “why” but I knew why - Jesus who is the creator of everything, made Jane for His pleasure not mine and I was only her custodian. I had to give back His possessions when He asked.

Hard subjects but I hope that God will give you the grace and power to overcome this evil disease. I believe if you turn your face to Him, you will not regret it and you will see Pancreatic cancer as your opportunity and not as your burden.

I love you with the love of the Lord Jesus Christ!!!

Craig Kinsman
+27-83-750-5821
craig@kinsman.co.za

I am a 3 year survivor of PC and saw your letter on the Pan Can website. It would be great to connect if you are up to it.
My phone is:415-456-6460 or just email. Hope all is well with you. Best Regards, Kay